4 Months & Hurtin'

Four months ago today I was diagnosed. My life changed.

This morning, I couldn't lift my head out of bed because my bones are too achy. I feel as if I just had 15 rounds with Mohammed Ali. My tongue has turned from pink to white with sores all along the sides of it. It doesn't hurt much, it's just things are not tasting as they should. My throat is sore and I'm weak. Some of my fingertips are beginning to feel tender. One lady compared the feeling to slamming her fingers through a door. I have to agree.

I'm not doing so well today and I hope this passes soon. All I could think of yesterday was which chemo treatment I would rather have. My answer? FEC100. Why? Because with FEC100 it's nausea for 4-7 days, but I can sleep most of it off. Sleeping is actually all I do. I wake up one afternoon and I'm okay. I can function after, do things, exercise. With this, I have to take steroids that increase my appetite, but with a sore mouth nothing tastes good. I'm bloated, which is a big bummer. I can't sit or lie down without feeling uncomfortable. The pain is constant...even in my sleep!

I have to go...where I don't know, but sitting here hurts. I hope that this goes away soon! I don't even think sushi can cure me right now!