My Five Year Anniversary - July 21, 2006

Five years ago.  

It was five years ago that my life changed forever.

Forever, for the better.

It's really hard to believe how fast time has flown by.

And what these last five years have encompassed.

I've endured treatment, pain and suffering.

However, my life has been enlightened by the fear that comes with what can often be, simply, the hopelessness of cancer.

And it's been a good fear to have because now I'm finally living - I'm not ready to go just yet!

Five years ago.

It was five years ago that that I started to let go of the materialistic, pretencious, status-focused things that most of us think life is all about.

This was for the better.

Five years ago.

It's been five years and I'm still here.

It was five years ago I wondered and prayed if I would reach age 30.

Yes, it's an accomplishment.  There's no doubt in that.

But as I look to the future, to the next five years, I am frightened by the fear that comes with what can often be, the dreaded recurrance of cancer.

It's a fear that makes me want to live harder.  Just in case!

Today I am thankful, Today I am happy, Today and for a while now I am no longer consumed by superficial things.

I'm consumed with experiencing Life at its fullest, with being with my family and friends, travelling and truly connecting and making a positive difference with those who cross my path.

For the next five years, I will continue to live one day at a time, helping, loving, caring, laughing, seeing, trying, being, listening, understanding, and hoping to just be....me.

Today, after five years, I have a bit more hope.  It's a hope that comes with what can often be, simply, just making it to the five year mark.  J